Affect-ion

this morning i was full of i love yous

i promise you, the amount of affection was prolific

the folds of my brain were spilling with serenades
i had to keep repeating them to myself for later

i would buy you so many things
i would make you so many things

my mind was agasp at how it was too long since i had cherished you
you should have known already but
the words told me so clearly
and made that knowledge you should have known seem..
completely incomprehensible.

Smoke and sighs

Daylight was present
Though the curtains were still drawn, in the sky
Enveloping the room from the light of the sun
the clouds hung
muffling the protests from the bed where the world lay

Monday morning
Awoken life only in the appendages
So disembodied parts: toes, wheels
crawled along responsibly to keep the motion going
Bearing the eyes that did not register and the cars that did not feel

My fingers all 5 of them
Huddled around the small fire
When an off-course plane a disaster dove in, became a burning head Aflight
And my lips wrinkled gratefully, like aching knees bending to plead, embrace the thin, thin paper
Breathing in that air... Res.pir.ing.

Eyes, smouldering
My tongue she runs
Feeling around the smooth enamel of my top teeth
Arriving to rest on the cusp of my lip
Savouring then the taste of the stains from the coffee I spilled at 6am.